Star craves freedom, but Satori refuses to let her go. He casts a spell to make her love him again, opening a gateway through which Lilith, mother of demons, enters his life.
Lilith serves no man. Instead she seduces Star, assuring her that there is no shame in love, only completion. Thus begins a strange and terrible love triangle that leads them to Scotland and the Cairngorm mountains.
An LGBT love story full of horror and dark fantasy - be careful what you wish for.
Winner of HFA's Horror Author of the Year, Fear Venture's Author of the Year (2014), Best Horror Release by The Three Bookateers (2014) and nominated for the Commonwealth Book Prize. Starblood is the first book in a series - Psychonaut, Black Sun, and Ribbons continue Star, Satori and Lilith's stories.
A graphic novel based on this award-winning novel is also available, illustrated by Anna Prashkovich.
Starblood, Psychonaut, and Black Sun
releasing early May 2021
releasing late May 2021
Satori is caught between two worlds. There is something he needs in one, but the other keeps drawing him back. However, he is in love and he isn’t going to let a little thing like death get in his way. To reach his goal, he must face unimaginable horrors, not least of which is his true self.
Star’s tortured and broken body awaits Satori, but does she really need him to save her? His rival, a rage-filled young woman, grows more powerful and becomes as twisted as the ribbons in her hair while the demon, Lilith, draws each of them inexorably towards her. Who will survive the coming battle?
Full of sex and magic, “Psychonaut” is an exploration into the human psyche and the second book in Voiez’s Starblood series.
"Carmilla Voiez is more of a singer than a writer. She tells her compelling story in a hypnotic, distinctive voice that brings her eerie world vividly to life." Graham Masterton
“Psychonaut is a book of mad impulses, inner vision, sadism, escape and belief. You feel uncomfortable reading it, like Alex strapped to the chair in Clockwork Orange being taught to feel sick at atrocity. Rather than leave us crippled by response, though, Psychonaut bears you through the hurt towards the only paradise we can be assured of...a love past fault.” Jef Withonef, Houston Press.
Murder, magic and obsession tear the heroes from the bliss they deserve. Star and Satori are being hunted; something is playing with their lives. Star found her power in another world, but will that be enough to save them? In a game of revenge, lovers and friends are moved around a cosmic chess board; death and madness are the final penalties for defeat. Who can judge whether the self-destructive human psyche or obsessed demon-child is the more dangerous force?
Starblood by Carmilla Voiez, chapter one.
Satori stands in the centre of his bedroom. His fragile-looking, angular body is lost in the forest of writing that expands around him—a web of ancient knowledge. His fingers and the lace cuffs of his shirt are stained from the charcoal he uses to scribble symbols. Markings cover every surface: the bare floorboards, ceiling and walls. Even his wardrobe and door are covered in intricate black sigils.
He unbuttons his shirt, swearing as he leaves fingerprints on the cotton. After tossing the garment on his bed, he unzips his jeans and forces the denim down his legs to the floor. Standing naked, he smells himself. There is no trace of her scent on his body and realising this feels like losing her all over again.
He pulls silver rings from his fingers, removes the hoops from his left ear and the silver stud from his pointed nose. His jewellery jingles like tiny bells as he lets it fall, scattering like distant stars across the midnight duvet. On his pillow, dozens of photographs lie like fallen leaves; some are intact, but most are torn or defaced. Her face holds his thoughts for a moment: pale, perfect and framed by a mass of ebony curls. He shakes his head to clear her image. After this is over, he will make her love him again, and she will beg him to forgive her. A wolfish grin grows across his face at the thought of Star on her knees, begging him to take her back. He licks his lips. His face feels hot, his body cold, but despite his impatience, his desire to complete the ritual and achieve his goal, he waits. He sucks air through his nostrils and collects his thoughts—he mustn’t rush; he must keep control of himself and his desires.
He draws the same glyphs on his body, starting with his toes and the soles of his feet then moving upwards with practised dexterity. Charcoal drags against his skin, which blossoms pink below each mark. The growing tattoo obscures his features while the tips of his fingers prickle with energy.
Although he knows what he needs to say, he reads the passage again, draws two circles on the floor and steps into one of them. With the fingers of his right hand, he traces a pentagram in the air before him and recites the words, pronouncing each syllable with care.
‘… This is my will,’ he says finally.
Lifting a silver dagger above his head, he concentrates. An excited grin spreads across his graffiti covered face and with tremendous force he plunges the knife downwards, severing the air in front of him. Through the tear, he glimpses swirls of darkness: Chaos. He calls to Furfur, creator of love between man and woman, to share with him his demon’s power, so he can win Star back.
A long, slender leg steps through the gap, followed by a lily-white body. The interloper is female, naked and hairless.
‘I am Satori.’ His voice quivers with fear and excitement. He coughs and tries to speak with more authority. ‘I have brought you—’
‘Brought me? I think not. I saw the door and came to see the fool who caused it to open.’ Her emerald eyes are full of contempt.
Satori’s confidence withers. Malice thickens the air like gelatine, and the demon’s aura chills the room. Although he suspects it is fear rather than the cold that makes his body shake and his bones rattle. Staring at her in silence, he realises he has made an error. What went wrong? Instead of Furfur, contained and compelled to do his bidding, ready to elevate him back into the arms of his beloved, he’s faced with something else, something threatening. He raises his dagger above him again, ready to expel her before it’s too late, but before he can open his mouth, she knocks the dagger away with the back of her hand.
‘I am your guest not your minion, and you will not dismiss me,’ she says.
Satori falls to the floor, nursing his wrist. Thousands of drawings swim before his eyes as she steps into view, pale feet smudging his glyphs.
He watches, transfixed, as her white toes sharpen into a point and black ectoplasm spreads over them and the sides of her feet until they meet at the back to form a shiny slipper. Her heels rise, and her feet arch as stiletto heels stretch beneath the soles. Spellbound, he watches the same process in action across every part of her body. A leather corset grows over her chest and stomach, and with each moment, the material becomes more defined like a rapid rewinding of decomposition; five red trimmed straps emerge from the black leather, each with a silver buckle at the centre. Lace panties spread over her crotch, obscuring the shock of red hair. Over the underwear, a shiny black mini skirt forms, skimming her thighs. Her face is painted; her crimson lips match the shade of her luxurious hair; her closed eyes sprout thick, black lashes; above these, perfect eyebrows arch toward her delicate nose. When she opens her eyes again, Satori’s body responds to her beauty.
She laughs. ‘I am not yours, magician.’ Cold, green eyes sweep around the room, her body flexes and tightens, and a frown creases her forehead and chin. ‘Open the door.’
‘Who are you?’ His voice carries no authority, and he’s surprised that she answers.
‘Lilith.’ She strides towards the door as if she has already forgotten he is there.
‘No! I have to send you back.’ It’s a moot point, but he feels better for making it. He must not let her see his powerlessness.
She turns to him. Crouched on the floor, he feels her judgement. He tries to stand, but under the power of her scorn his limbs are like liquid. She moves like quicksilver. He has never seen anyone, human or feline, move as gracefully or effortlessly. Fear strengthens his body; he takes a deep breath and tries to rise. The mocking smile on her face makes his stomach twist and tighten. He feels anger at her dismissal of his power, yet his penis aches for her, rebelling against his will.
‘These symbols,’ she says, ‘will not hold me.’
She opens her hand and raises her palm towards the door. The charcoal shapes move and twist across the painted wood. They detach themselves with a final tug and swirl and dance through the air before racing towards Satori and buzzing around his face like mosquitoes. Confused, he bats them away with his arms then calms himself, clears his mind and wills the airborne glyphs away. When he opens his eyes again, the swarm and Lilith are gone.